heyy. everyting mcm takk kena je lately. i dunno why. i've tried my best nk hilangkan this feeling. tak tau nk explain mcm mana. but really scks man! everydayy bangun pagi, i always pray that "today is better than yesterday", butta sometimes it was turned back. yesterday is better than today. and ada satu tahap tu, rasa nak tidur lama lama, makan banyak banyak. unfortunately it wasn't work eventho for a bit! maybe sebab cuaca. panas. so hati pon cepat je nk panas. betul ke? boleh jadi. takpun, i risau sebab result dah nak kuar. too much thinking kot. sebab tu tension.
nak text org pn mungkin org malaaas nk layan. mungkin org lain pn tga mood swing. ehmmm.
tengok tv, cerita best pon jadi tak best.ya Allah, ape punya mood nii.nak senyum sikit pon susah. rasa down pn ade. dah banyak sangat buat salah kat org, lagi lagi org kat rumah ni.i'm so sorry. ain takde mood laaaaa~
puhhhhh puhhhhh go away bad moooood ! ! !
=.=
p/s:orang kata makan chocolate bole turn org jadi happy. tapi i makan takde effect pn. nk tips lain boleh?
salam maulidur rasul:)
ohh. how time flies. dah dekat 3 months i left school & now brlah nk terasa a bit rinduu kat those handouts,extra classes, long-long lecture, experiments n ect. yang dlu rasa tak sabar sabar nk tinggalkn sume tu. know what, now i feel boring without those things:s
kalau dkt skolah time tgh hari mcm ni, usually my frens & i had the sleepiness at the top! all seems like tak bersemangat cuz perut dah mula lapar, nk concentrate pun susa kot. hee. lagi2 kalau tgh hari cmni subjek bm or agama, mostly takleh tahan da. ade yang tersenggut2 takpon syahid terus. tapi.. still ada yg masih kuat & bersemangat. tak ketinggalan jgk sesi urut mengurut. hahaaa. but sometimes my mood tak berapa nak ngantok, start laa nak gelakkan org. tengok je muka org yg ngantokk gila tahap ape tah ngn fariha. kan kan? ishh. tak baik sungguh. tapi i know sometimes i was like that too. betul tak fariha, mahfuzah, lee? =='
bila dah dekat kul 2, hilang lah semua kemen-ngantokkan yg ada. masing masing segar bugar sebab bersedia nk berlari pulang ke dining hall. budak dinamik mmg. bab makan sume laju je:D
today looks like boring for me but i tried to prevent myself to feel that wayy. yelah maulud nabi. hari yang baik. so takkan nk jadikan harini hari yg tak baik plk kan utk diri kita.
haa, talk bout maulud. last year, pujangga was won the banner competition. lawak gila kot time tu. byk dugaan yang menimpa dari awal sampai lah habis pertandingan tu. mcm biasa, bkc pujeng yg bersemangat like synaq, had been bertngkus lumus kot for that. i just gave some help with other frens; fariha, aisyah naxzie,milla, addy,clodee & tah sape tah lagi. oh, raisya, syaza tak ketinggalan jugak. mula mula time nk cari sketching utk banner tu. saluunye ain aka Ketua Naqib(not me) yg sketch cuz he has an amazing talent of writing khat termasuklah addy yg tak kurang hebat. so pujeng mmg bernasib baik lah to have this two people.tapi the problem was the sketcing was lost nowhere. lepas dah kesana kemari tgh2 mlm ni (synaq n fariha ), cari sketching tu sbb synaq yg careless, taktau dia letak mana, last last jumpa sketching tu dalam seluar synaq pakai petang haritu. i dah tergelakk gila je tgk muka synaq time tuuu. mana taknye, byk2 tempat cari, dlm poket seluar jugak jumpa.sengal betul. sume menjerit cam ape je sbb bengang.tp takdelah sampai nk marah si synaq tu. hahaaaa.
then nk cari Plaka the nex dayy. penat dorang cari kat blok pujeng, lari sini sana, tnya org nilah org tulah. yela, plaka ni dikire penting dlm rumah. mostly event yg ada mist pakai plaka utk buat mcm2. finally jumpa jugak.kat mana tah.tak igtlaa. fuhh. dah lega lah masing masing but tiba2 tak cukup brush plk nk color. ahli da cukup nak main warna ni,tiba2 tmbh lagi masalah. kat koop takde brush utk color tuu. yg ada just berus cina yg buluh tu.can u imagine that?tu pon yg zaman bila punya dah. kak fiza koop nk jual pon tak sampai hati. tapi sebab rumah punya pasal, ktorg beli jugak brush tu. 50sen je , murah!so ktorg beli banyak2 bia sume dapat pakai. tapi pakai tu susa sikit lah sbb dia lembut sket dr brush biasa. then ktorg mewarnalah dengan penuh passion haritu sbb dah bersusah payah. tak siap banner tu sambung lagi malam, kat kantin. habis prada yg kilat2 tu dorg main. tapi i tak join pon sbb kurg mood. tapi still teruskan mewarna. gelak pon sikit je. ape hal tah.kat hostel sambung lagi, touch up mana2 kurang sampai siap. esknya, bila nk announce siapa menang ktorg ni semua dah berdebar je. mana tau ada harapan bagi PKR naik stage ambil hadiah.heee. tengok2, luck was on our side. how happy we were at that time:))yelah bukan senang pujeng nk menang-.-
i only wish that something awesome will happen today. pleaseeee...~
salam. i always wished if i cud control the time machine. especially for today. but nothing can change fate right. 19th feb is the date for my sister going back to townsville continuing her medical studies, so the date is today. first when i woke up this morning i didnt felt anything yet till the moment she had to say goodbye n started hugging & salam-ing ibu, hanim and lastly me, suddenly i had an overwhelming feeling that i cant bear it. tears welled in my eyes, but i tried not to let it run down my cheecks. i knew ibu must be more sad than me. so i controlled myself & hide my sorrow.
first i met her after 10 months she left us last year, was raya haji. she came to visit me at samura with ibu, maksu, paksu, aisyah, anis & ilya. i was very exteremely excited that time but i didnt showed it obviously( since that is my real behaviour;hiding the real feeling towards someone but no ones know what's inside:D)
she was not much changing & still like before. her speaking styles, way of dressing still show that she was not had a culture shock or anything while she was at aussie. alhamdulillah.
we had been together for almost 3 months & for me it is a long time, to be at home. so many words to describe herself. she is a strong survivor. she tried so hard to bring herself at this stage. one night, we were chattering about our family. she said; "akak fikir kita ni takde apa-apa pun selain dari ilmu & kejayaan yang kita ada. itulah je yang boleh bawak kita ke mana mana & itu je yang boleh buat orang memandang kita. sebab tu akak belajar rajin rajin" . i was lost in words that time. thinking the rightness of her words. yess. she was very right. she taught me a lot without i realised. every words from her to me are meaningful & inspiring.
despite of her success that make me adore her, she also has some funny, cheerful behaviour that make all of us laugh n sometimes get annoyed with her actios. but we never hates n we are about to miss you enna:)
this evening i was on9 for a while.suddenly anem entered our house and shouting, "kak nina~! n go to my room
& i straightly sound her."heyy. mana ada kak nina la"
"eh lupa lah. kak nina dah balik" she get out from the room and smiling tersipu-sipu. apelah adik..
i was sad again. arrh. how boring am i when she absent. we used to go out & shopping together till anem always be jealous with us cuz we oftenly going out while she was at school.huhu.
n when it comes to buy someting ,she kindly help me choosing n giving her best opinion for me. seriously, she is my best shopping-mate ever!!
I'M GOING INTO BORING LIFE WIHOUT YOU,SIS. BELIEVE ME -.-
nanti takde lagi orang yang nak bebel bebel kemas bilik, gantung baju dlm wardrobe elok-elok, buat lawak gila-gila, teman borakborak plus mengumpat sebelum tidur:D, orang yang nak dengar cerita pasal boyfren, orang yang nak support ain nak ambil course ape, tolong ain buat research pasal course yang ade, bagi pinjam duit bila ain sengkek;p, & bla bla bla. sume dah tak de lah. balik cepat siket eh. boleh teman ain lagi. hee. mengada punya budak!
enna take care & study well there:)
i love you so much <3
* kalau enna baca post ni jgn gelak eh:P
I'M NOT A GOOD WRITER INDEED.
final snaps:)
last pose from you
bye-bye. sobbssss
salam. khas untuk wawa my luvvie:) & rakan-rakan yang mungin berduka saat atau masa ini.
bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
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Amin..ya rabbal alamin..
